Today I Am an Underachiever
My to-do list states very clearly that right now I should be writing
the excellent and thoughtful guest blog that Bill Kenower at
AuthorMagazine.org so richly deserves. What Iím doing instead is
Itís Monday, so my first list is really more of a space-and-time
My daughter is on an Amtrak train back to college after a
two-week spring break.
Iíve dropped off my husband at work.
Despite driving rain, Iíve walked and made much of our dogs,
especially the four-year-old because, letís face it, the new
puppy gets most of the limelight.
My latest book, Seeing Stars, has now been out for six
Thereís one day left on the email auto-responder that announces
Iím still away on the first leg of my book tour, which means
that I have
All day to write, but
Instead I am dithering.
Iím unnerved at having
Seeing Stars out in the reading
world, despite favorable early reviews and the fact that itís my
Iím unnerved at working on my fifth book, despite the fact that
Iím on manuscript page 125 and love the characters.
Iím unnerved because I donít want to just write. I want to write
deliciously; I want a hot fudge sundae of a writing day,
a day so rich and filling I can take the next two weeks off if I
want to and still feel good about myself.
Iím afraid I canít muster the necessary degree of deliciousness.
Listsóthe writerly equivalent of junk foodóare quick, fun, and
make me feel like Iím accomplishing something even when I know
Iíve been losing at online Mahjong, a game which becomes
scream-inducing if you play it too much, which I have.
Hereís what I was doing after I mustered the strength of character
to X out of the damned Mahjong browser window, but before I began
Read the news.
Took the puppy out to go potty, because an hour and a half had
elapsed since our walk, though God only knows how that
Read more of the news.
Checked my Seeing Stars sales rank on Amazon.com, even
though I donít have a clue how the numbers relate to overall
sales in bookstores. They seemed discouraging, so I
Checked my Hannahís Dream sales rank, also on Amazon.com.
Better, especially the Kindle edition.
Looked out the window to see if it was still raining, which I
already knew it was because I could hear it.
Refreshed the browser windows with my sales ranks on Amazon.com.
Scanned the news for new news.
Checked Hannahís and Starsí ratings on
So you can see what Iím up against. Hereís what I plan to do next:
Read all of
Olive Kitteridgeís one-star reviews on Amazon.com,
because itís a book I wish I could have written, and the one-stars
never fail to cheer me up.
List all the reasons I can think of to stop writing lists.
Send these lists to Bill Kenower at AuthorMagazine.org, with abject
Call it a day.
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